Personal Philosophy

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(¸.·´ (¸.·´ .·´ ¸¸.·¨¯`·☆I may not always say or do the right things, and I may not know everything there is to know… but I will always be me and eventually know where I need to be ♥

The above statement is so true but unfortunately I copied from a friend’s Facebook status.  Frankly, I was addicted to the website’s games but gradually tiring of most or perhaps I’ve finally realize that there is something more important to do.  The website still has many platforms to utilize especially my genealogy groups and fan pages.

I need to change so many things in my life – health, depression, financial future, social life.  A friend at work tries to persuade me from drinking my diet Mt. Dew stating the acid is eating my stomach.  I laugh and tell him the Dew is my only vice, but I know water is the better choice. 

Why do we remain obese when we know the extra weight can cause so many problems?  The medical condition hypothyroidism can not be blame but is a factor along with my borderline hypertension and high cholesterol.  My sweet tooth, poor diet and lack of will power is the culprit.

Prozac has somewhat curb my attitude and mood swings, but I still lack the desire to correct so many issues.   I have lost interest in my appearance except for coloring my grey hair (go figure).  I don’t want to go anywhere alone so I don’t go anywhere.  Just sit at home and wallow in my self-pity.

I am employed as a security officer (shift supervisor) – easiest and most non-stressful job I have ever had but it does not cover my expenses.  The dream of having my own business has not been fruitful – presently researching some online options but there are so many scams on the internet.  My sister helps take care of my Mom (both live with me) – don’t know what I would do without her help! 

What is a social life?  I make a joke out of finding a husband who works to help take care of me.  Yes, that would work but I need the companionship too.  I have had an  affair with a married man for several years, but I have known from the start that the relationship would not evolve into a marriage.  This is a story all in its own time.

I will end this post with – May you never encounter anything except that which is good.